it did not take long for me to realised that wat I really yearn for is not sex but the desire to be close with someone of the opposite sex physically as well as emotionally. I crave for intimacy and the need to hug, cuddle or just hold her in my arms. It would be nice to hug her from behind and smell her hair while enjoying the feeling of closeness.
Thats all I wanted really, anything more would be just a bonus and I m not at all bother whether or when I lose my virginity as some might think otherwise. Thats hardly my goal, I just felt that I need to find some love before I end my life in despair....
