Wishing and hoping

I've been wishing for the world to end or a huge catastrophe that will devastate the whole world, it would make me really happy to see it end. Hopefully it will end soon by next year end according to the Mayan calendar. If it doesn't end then I hope to die soon as I dun have any purpose in my life and the world is freaking boring, nothing special ever happens. My life sucks and death seems like the only way to end all the BS that life have given me. Besides theres no fun in playing a game that u cant be good at and makes u feel miserable. Its time to move on and go to the next phase... I wont try to kill myself just wish that it will cause by some kind of accident and a quick death hopefully. Better yet, I would prefer to sacrifice my life to save others as stated in my earlier post. That will be so cool...